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I prepared her breakfast with a rock hard dick, and a used condom in my mouth.

When she was eating, I went to my room and masturbated. Right after the orgasm, I started crying instantly. I\`ve never cried like that before. It was like a huge espousing for me. I have accepted what was happened, and what will be happen to me at that moment. There was nothing to do for me, it was my faith.

She had become much more comfortable with me after I saw her naked. After that day, she started undressing and even being completely naked around me from time to time. She was even having fun with me if I get erected. She put a nickname to my dick, the court dwarf. She was always mocking my sexual side actually. I honestly would prefer that if she ignore me completely, not expose her body to me, or maybe forbid me to jerk off. Because it would mean that one way or another she was still considering me as a heterosexual male. But she was just openly indifferent to my sexual side. To be honest, it was the most humiliating thing I experienced so far.

And I was always thinking about her when I was masturbating. Hugging her gently, kissing her lips, pushing her to my chest, feeling her soft fingers on my body, sliding into her pussy, grabbing her boobs and lots of other things, was always in my mind like a very vivid dream I just woke up.

A couple of weeks passed. It was like nothing has happened. We were going to our offices in weekdays, and rest of the week I was serving her. Occasionally she was going out, and wasn\`t coming back to home. I never asked where she was. I was afraid of the answer. And sometimes, she was silently crying for Paul. That was the hardest thing for me. Not only because she was crying for a disgusting-cheating ex-boyfriend, but also it was obvious that she is broken inside. She couldn\`t get over the break up. But she was happy and comfortable at all the other times, I was doing everything to keep her comfortable.

One night, a Wednesday night that I still remember very vividly, when I was sleeping in my room, I heard a loud and cheerful scream. It was coming from Emma. She rushed out her room and came to me and hugged. I was quite shocked. I hugged her back, and after a couple of seconds she kissed me on my cheek. I was shocked even more.

“Paul just sent me a text. He wants to meet me talk about our relationship.”

“Emma, are you sure? He hurt you badly, I don\`t want to see you like that again.”

Emma\`s face fell.

“What are you now, a relationship adviser? Are you smarter than me? Are you more experienced?”

“No I did not mean that I was ju…”

“Shut the fuck up. It was my mistake that I gave consequence to you. I want to be happy just for once and you are killing my mood.”

“But Emma, I just thou….”

“I. SAID. SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP”

She yelled at me so loudly that I was sure that our neighbours heard that. I just went dead silent.

“Fuck you you stupid useless cunt. Fuck you and your thoughts. Who are you? When did you start thinking? Last time I saw you were getting high by kissing my soles. And now you think that you can give advice to me? Fuck your thoughts. You are not meant to be think. I don’t want you to think. You are just a clown, OK? You are my puppet. You can\`t have thoughts.”

“I\`m sorry.”

“Better be. You ruined my night, again. Go fetch me a wine and bring it to my room.”

When I got inside her room with a glass of wine, she was sitting on the bed and texting with someone with a smile on her face. She ordered me to get naked and grovel at the end of her bed. I did it.

“Keep the tip of your nose touching the floor and stay like that until the morning. And remember not to think again.”

She went to sleep after like half an hour, and I stayed there just like she told me.

I woke her up as usual, by kissing and massaging her feet softly. She clearly told me that she hates alarm clocks so we were doing it since the beginning. Just before she left for work, she stopped:

“Did you think about what did you do last night?”

“Yes Emma, I\`m sorry.”

“You should not think, shithead, you never learn.”

She laughed with cheer, and shut the door.