More than I Could chew

This story is based on one I read in the old sub. I don’t remember who wrote it, but it was really good!

My name is Dave I’m 32M. I had been dating my girlfriend for over 5 years before I ruined it. Her name was Nicole 33F. She was drop dead gorgeous with long red hair amazing c cup breasts and a great ass. Not one of those overly big ones, just perfect. 

Our sex life was good before, no issues or complaints on either end to my knowledge. However, there’s something that had turned me on as long as I could remember and I decided to confide it to her. I don’t what started it, but I’ve always been turned on by women in charge. I remember watching movies where the hot chick turned out to be the bad guy and at a point had the male hero under her grasp. Her power and her flirtatious attitude drove me crazy. 

I explored this when I was younger by watching femdom porn. It was hot but aspects like pegging and foot worship really weren’t for me and were used heavily in that kink. I started getting into ball busting and sph fantasies. This was getting there, but when I found castration porn it unleashed a great lust in me for more. 

Something about a woman controlling a man’s most sensitive and important parts was so hot. Especially when they were so easily taken or discarded. However I never shared this with anyone including partners. I thought Nicole might be the one. 

I told her about my fantasies one night. She seemed uncomfortable. Our sex was usually pretty vanilla so I assumed she’d be surprised. “So you want someone to cut your balls off?” She asked hesitantly. “Of course not” I replied. “It’s more so the thrill of something so taboo that turns me on. Losing control, but never would I want it to actually happen” I added. 

I didn’t push the topic but a few nights later she tried some dirty talk regarding owning my balls. It was so hot, but only a few minutes in she had to call it off. “It’s too weird” she said.

Things seemed kind of normal after that at the surface, but underneath I was a mess. I wanted to spend my life with Nicole and had actually already bought a ring, but the thought of never being able to explore my greatest kink was scary. So I started pushing more into the fantasy online. I started paying women online to indulge in the fantasy. For a while it was the best of both worlds until Nicole found out. 

She was devastated. She thought of it on par with an affair. She ended things that night, but it was obvious we were both heart broken. 

A short time later I was walking home from the bar one night when suddenly I was grabbed and pulled into an alley. There were 4 men in masks holding me down on the cold wet ground. I tried to protest, but they taped my mouth shut and over powered me. Then from further in the alley I heard a familiar voice say “take his pants off”. It was Nicole. I couldn’t see her but I knew it was her. 

She walked around until she was standing in front of me while one of the men cut my pants off of me with a pocketknife. Once my bottom half was completely exposed she stood over me and squatted down below. 

“This weird sick fantasy of wanting to lose your balls destroyed everything. Years of a relationship that I thought would be forever. Now I’m gonna give you what you want, in-fact more. Because after I’m done, you won’t ever get hard to the thought of this sick shit”. She said. The. She pulled a big knife and backed up until she was standing over my genitals. “That’s surprising. I would have thought your little cock would be hard right now” she said staring at my flaccid penis. 

Then she grabbed my sack pulling it towards her. I squirmed trying to get free to no avail. She then sawed through my sack severing my balls from me. I gargled under the tape. Just before I lost consciousness I saw her stand back up and noticed she wasn’t wearing any panties under her skirt. 

The next thing I remember I woke up in an ambulance on my way to the hospital. She took my balls with her when she left me there so obviously there was no reattaching them. Now I spend my time in the apartment that used to be filled with our laughs but now it’s silent. She was right though I haven’t gotten hard thinking about that fantasy ever again, because I can no longer get hard at all. 

She has never returned my messages or calls and the only time I saw her since was when I received a text from a random number containing a video or her getting fucked by someone else. I wish I never told her about this stupid fantasy…